We just got home from the ultrasound. There was no heartbeat on our baby girl. Sometime between my appointment last Monday and today, she passed away. The doctor today assumed due to heart failure. The cyst was much bigger and her entire body looked swollen.
Since I am in my second trimester, the procedure we must go through is a bigger deal than a DNC. They actually induce me, dilate me, put me under and have me deliver the baby. We have the opportunity to bury her. Taylor and I will be going to the hospital tomorrow and I will be there until Thursday, possibly Friday depending on how long the labor takes me.
Talk about unexpected. Last night, laying in bed, I told Taylor that I could feel her moving a lot. All last night, this morning, the drive to the hospital, and waiting in the waiting room I had a prayer in my heart. I knew if I believed, He would heal her. Perhaps this is His way of healing her. While the news came as a shock and unexpected, I still believe in a God of healing, a God of miracles, a God of peace. We always knew and said we would accept His will, and we will.....it's just hard. Honestly, I am not looking forward to going through labor and the aftermath of it to come home without a new baby. But I guess that is my trial right now, my test of faith. I know that the Lord has not left us alone thus far, and I KNOW he will not leave us alone tomorrow, or the next day, or the next....
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I'm so sorry to hear that Valerie! I hope the delivery goes as smoothly as possible. I'll pray for you!
Oh Valerie my heart goes out to you and your family so much right now. I am crying my eyes out for you. Heavenly Father really does work in mysterious ways and sometimes our faith is all that we can give to understand. You are such an amazing woman of that faith. I will be thinking and praying for you even more these next few days. All our love and sympathy.
Oh Val! I don't know what to say except that you are in our prayers and I'm so sorry. You are so strong, and I know the Lord will bless you to be able to deal with what lies ahead. We love you!
Hugs to you and Taylor. We love you and will continue to pray that you will have peace and comfort.
Anne & Colin Bingham
So sorry to hear your news. We were all hoping for better. We love you both. All our love and sympathies!
Taylor and Valerie-
We admire your courage at this time and think you are right; This was the Lord's way of healing her. One thing is for sure... it sounds like you will have an energetic little girl to raise later on!
Good luck this weekend- we will be thinking of you...
By the way, we are still waiting on Pitt for PT school, but it looks like we will probably be at the U.
I'm in tears. I'm so sorry. Your strength of testimony is inspiring. I pray that all goes well at the hospital.
I am so sorry about your loss. You are a very strong and because of that you WILL be blessed. Thank goodness for the Gospel and the knowledge that you know you will be able to see her again some day.
Val, I know there is nothing I or anyone else can say or do to help the pain. You are truly amazing and have been blessed with patience and understanding. You will continue to be in our payers. Continue to be close to the Lord, he WILL carry you through this.
Lots of Love
Val, I know there is nothing I or anyone else can say or do to help the pain. You are truly amazing and have been blessed with patience and understanding. You will continue to be in our payers. Continue to be close to the Lord, he WILL carry you through this.
Lots of Love
Oh, sweetheart. I've been praying for you guys all day long. Give yourself time to mourn this as you would any death. Time heals - but sometimes it moves all too slowly. Be patient with yourself. I love you guys!
Troy and I are so sorry. We hope you guys are doing okay, and we will keep you in our prayers. Good luck with everything.
I'm so sorry to hear about this latest development. Your family's been in my prayers and will continue to be. Thank you for your testimony. I'm so glad we have a Father in Heaven who makes it so families can be together forever.
Oh Val, my heart dropped when I read your post. I am so sorry.
I know there's nothing I can say to take away your heartache or pain. I'm sorry.
Please know we are praying for you and Taylor during this difficult time. We miss you guys.
Val,
I am so sorry! You sound so strong. I am amazed by your courage and testimony. I hope you look at these comments before you go to the hospital. Make sure you have the hospital contact NILMDTS for a photographer to come take pictures of her. It's a non-profit org and the photographers are professionals that volunteer to take pictures of the babies for the families to have memories of their angels. They take pictures of their feet, hands, faces, anything that you want. I've seen some. They are beautiful.
I hope everything goes well for you tomorrow.
Kristin Hill
Valerie,
I am so so sorry. I know, in a way, how you're feeling right now. I imagine it is similar to how I felt when I had my miscarriage before Sophie. I promise those sad, sad feelings will pass and life will be happy again. Your little angel is in Heaven and is in our Saviors arms right now. She is happier than you could ever imagine. You will get to raise your little girl, now is just not the right time. Know that I love you and I'm here if you need me. Please call if you need anything, even if it's just a shoulder to cry on.
You are in our thoughts and prayers, as you have been for a few months now. We admire your great faith!
Our dearest cousins...
When we're told of the Noble and Great Ones who surrounded our Heavenly Father and Savior, I think of you two and your amazing family. Our hearts break for your family right now, but we rejoice in the knowledge that you'll have the opportunity to raise that beautiful little girl again. Valerie, your trials of today will prove to be your testimony of tomorrow. You are an amazing daughter of God. Taylor, you know how much I've always looked up to you. You are my hero and a hero to many. The faith that you both have brings me to my knees in humility. May the Lord continue to bless you and be by your side during this time of pain and suffering. We love you all so much and will continue to pray for you. R, E, R, M & M Layton...
Oh Val, my heart is breaking for you. I'm keeping you in my prayers. Your sweet angel is back with her Heavenly Father, waiting for you have the chance to raise her. I wish I could be there to support you through this.
Oh, Valerie I am so, so, so Sorry to hear this sad news. I truly know that the Lord is mindful of us, at all times, and that he truly will NEVER leave us alone. Turn to him & let him heal you & your families heart. I know that he will! Just know that you are in our thoughts and prayers! Love, Melissa
Taylor & Val~
You and your precious family have been in my thoughts all day. My heart is so heavy. Heavenly Father knows what amazingly special and strong people you are. What an honor to have such a valiant little spirit entrusted to your family. She simple needed her body to "pass this test" and is now awaiting you to "Return with Honor" just as she has done. We love you so much and have you in our constant thoughts and prayers.
Love,
Anthony & Mandi Taylor
I love you Val! Are prayers are with you through these next days/ weeks/ months! I am so touched by your faith in the Lord's plan and know he will watch over you and your little girl. I am so sorry that you are having to go through this. And feel so blessed that you are sharing yoru faith and trials with those around you. You have so many who care for you in this world and in our home above!
With all my heart, Jessi.
Our prayers are with you.
Dear Valerie, My name is Jessica, we have never met before, but your Mother-in-law (whom I and my family love dearly) is in my parents home ward. I can't help the tears from rolling down my cheeks after reading about the unfortunate events taking place for you and your family right now. My heart is full of the deepest condolences for you at this time. It is clear that you are a woman of great faith, and the Lord WILL watch over you. I'll be praying that even another comforter will be yours at this time. Hang in there.
I'm so sorry!!! You brought me to tears! Wow, I'm so impressed by your strength...one day you will get to talk to the little one. I will pray for you guys!!
Oh Val my heart is just breaking for you. I know there is nothing I can say to take away the hurting and sadness you are feeling at this time, but I want you to know you and your family are in my prayers. You are truly an amazing woman and I look up to you in so many ways. Stay strong.
You don't know me, but I stumbled across your blog and it has truly strengthened me. I am going through a difficult time with my pregnancy and you have been such a great example of faith. You have helped me realize that the Lord truly is watching over me and will not leave us. You and your family will be in my thoughts and prayers.
Val, you and your family are in Beau and I's prayers. You are a woman of great faith! We love you!
Taylor and Valerie,
I am so so sorry. My thoughts and prayers are with you.
Celeste Palmer
Just wanted to let you know that we love you and let us know if there is anything we can do for you. I'm so sorry that you lost her. You will always be her mother and she will always be yours. You'll see her again someday.
Tay and Val- I am so sorry to hear of your loss. No one truly understands the pain of losing a child until you have gone through it yourself. I know that our Father in Heaven is with you at this time and that your baby girl will be waiting for you guys up in heaven! I will be thinking about you this weekend.
Val, I am so sorry to hear. My mom told me on Friday. I can't imagine how feel, this must be so hard. Just know that you and Taylor are in our thoughts and prayers.
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