The Results

We got the call today with the results from the CVS test. I know a lot of you have been wondering if we have heard so I thought I would post...

We learned that there is a chromosome abnormality and that it is indeed Turner's Syndrome. If you don't remember, that is where there is a 99% chance of miscarriage. If I get past 26 weeks, I am considered to be in the 1%. The effects of Turner's Syndrome typically will not be noticed by anyone who does not know. For example, one of the effects is being shorter than average-- the child will most likely not be taller than 5 feet. (My mom should enjoy someone her own size now!) :) The child--if we get to delivery--has the full potential to live a long, healthy and normal life.

And, we found out that we are having a GIRL.

Ultimately, we feel this news is a mixed blessing.

I have felt for a while that I will not loose this baby, so initially, when she said it was Turner's and that signalled the 99% chance of miscarriage, I was confused with the feelings I had felt so strongly earlier. I thought, the FACTS of the matter are we will loose this baby to a miscarriage. BUT, I KNOW facts are not faith based.

I think the hardest thing about receiving this news is that I was mentally prepared (and convinced) that it would either be Down Syndrome or no abnormality. When Taylor and I spoke about what could happen, we knew Turner's was an option, but we never thought or talked about the chance that it would be Turner's. Never. So the news really did come as a shock. The genetic counselor continued to go on after giving me the news and I honestly don't remember a word she said.

So, you ask, how are we doing? A few hours ago that question most likely would have triggered the tears. But you ask me now, now that the news has been received and absorbed, we are doing good. We have the knowledge and support we need to get through this. We know and we believe that if we do loose this baby to a miscarriage, we will have the opportunity to raise that sweet little girl in the eternities. And that gives us great peace and comfort.

We also know that we will accept the Lord's will. We know that He is in control and if we put our FAITH and TRUST in Him, all will be ok. We know that. And because we know that, we are doing ok. Does it make it easier? No. But He never said it would be easy, He just said it would be worth it....and that, I do believe.

We are also lifted up by the incredible support and love we have felt from our friends and family....the care and the interest from those around us has truly made a difference in our lives throughout this experience. The prayers, the fasting, the calls, the messages.....have all meant so much to us and has helped us get through this and for that we are sincerely grateful to you.

We know we will get through this. We know that whatever happens will be God's will and that whatever happens is what is supposed to happen and knowing that has brought us the peace we need at this difficult time.

I remain hopeful and full of faith that we will be in that 1%. I believe miracles happen everyday. So for now, we take it one day at a time. The 20 week ultrasound will tell us a lot....so we pray that the cystic hygroma will resolve itself and disappear, because that will truly help our odds. If the cystic hygroma gets worse--which the ultrasound will tell us--the chances of having a stillbirth are likely. (Most likely, if it gets worse it is because there would be an excess of fluid building up around the baby). So please, pray with us now, that the cystic hygroma will resolve itself.